Vodka + Nipples = Hard?

I must be special, because whenever I have the slightest sip of a drink with alcohol my nipples get hard. Anyone know what might be causing this? Am I an alcoholic? Am I sexually attracted to alcohol?

Let Down

Who to blame?

Me?

the TTC?

other people?

Number 21

Its 5:48am, I just got home, its my birthday, cant get the new Girlicious song “Like Me”  outta my head(and I dont want to), gonna get some sleep, and try to have some fun today. =)

New Profiles on Dlist and GYNite

Both of these are gay social networks, so if you arent gay I doubt youll be interested in these. Lol. If you are though, sign of and send me a friend request. =)

http://www.dlsit.com/coralispink

http://www.gynite.com/profile/coralispink

Moby – Last Night

just bought this cd last night. I already loved Ooh Yea and recently Ive just been buying up anything I liked. Didnt gett a good chance to listen to the cd on the drive to scarbrough as Krishna and Simon insisted on having some random conversation. I was able to listen to most of the cd on the drive home, and I really enjoyed it. Moby has a new fan.

Favourite 3 Tracks:

Ooh Yeah

Everyday its 1989

Live for Tomorrow

Movies

If I never saw another blockbuster movie again I dont think I would mind. Watching obscure, and foreign movies is so satisfying. I only wish I had a better means of watching them. A decent sized tv in a dimly lit room with a nice relaxing couch.

Japan Japan

Defense d’aimer – Love Forbidden

Savage Grace

The Laramie Project

I just finished watching The Laramie Project, a film based off of a play made about the butal attack on Laramie, Wyoming resident Matthew Shepard.

“Matthew Shepard became a symbol of the damage caused by hatred and homophobia when his brutal murder became a front page headline across the nation. This cable original movie is based on the Tectonic Theater’s play about the incident and was written for the screen and directed by one of the original authors, Moises Kaufman. Kaufman uses a documentary style including interviews with local residents both horrified by the murderers’ actions as well as those who are more opposed to homosexuality.” – taken from rottentomatoes

Just after finishing the film I Googled Matthew Shepard, and recognized his face. An Foundation was established in his memory by his parents. Here is a link and a few snippets from their site if anyone is interested in learning more about what happened or ways to contribute to their goals.

http://www.matthewshepard.org/

OUR MISSION

To support diversity programs in education and to help youth organizations establish environments where young people can feel safe and be themselves.

OUR VISION

To educate and enlighten others on the importance of diversity, understanding, compassion, acceptance and respect. Everyone must participate in developing solutions to problems that are rooted in ignorance and hatred.

OUR GOAL

To replace hate with understanding, compassion and acceptance.

 

I hope that within my lifetime I get to see their goals achieved.

 

 

Tout Contre Leo

I just finished watching a French movie called Tout Contre Leo (Close to Leo).

Heres a synopsis taken from rotten tomatoes.

“Twenty-one-year-old Leo (Pierre Mignard) is the eldest son of a tightknit rural French family headed by youthful parents who love him and accept his homosexuality. When the family learns of Leo’s HIV-positive status, things become much more challenging for the loving group–especially for youngest brother Marcel (Yannis Lespert), who is being excluded from serious family discussions about Leo’s condition due to his age. But Marcel overhears one particular conversation and learns the devastating news on his own, leading the 11-year-old on a quest for the truth even as his family continues to pretend that nothing is wrong. This warm French drama explores the boundaries of family love during times of crisis from a unique and very moving perspective.”

Though only being 90minutes long I felt very attached to Leo and Marcel (the two main characters), and by the end I cried a bit. Very touching and emotional. Parts will make you smile, while others might make you wish you could hug the characters to offer them comfort.

Blog Update

Ive been tinkering with my blog for an hour or so and I have added some features to the page. Along the side there is a search bar, a calender, an RRS feed to my Flickr photos, and links to my YouTube profile, as well as links to Krishna, Ryan and Redford’s blogs. More to come soon.

Untitled

When I came out in 2006 I hoped that that everything would go well, and initially things looked good. Overtime I began to realize that I didnt have to go with the flow or pretend to be interested in what the group liked to hide myself, but I didn’t think that asking for a little change would cause so much distress. I think at that point I should have taken some initiative to make new friends with similar interests and ideals. It was silly of me to think that a group of people that were in my understanding slightly homophobic would be open to new things because one person in the group happened to be gay.After almost a year and a half Ive come to realize that I dont belong in the current groups that I particiate in. And I have a different thinking process and different values from most of the people I know. Those differences have prevented me from enjoying life the way i should be. I hate to say it but a lot of you are complete jerks.

To any “friend” of mine reading this and taking offence. Im not speaking about you all, some of you happen to be really nice people. The ones who I’m referring to know who they are. I’m also  not saying that in certain cituations Im not partially to blame, but its not selfish of me to want to be the best possible friend I can be to some of you and want you to be the same to me. The problem is, thats not what any of you want out of friendships. Most of you are content with the occasional meet up with people I see as not being your real friends be acquaintances. Thats what works for you, but it doesnt work for me. Realizing that is going to help me learn that I need to get out there and meet new people even if I’m not used to it.

So what am I going to do now? Well Im not going to alienate myself from the people who still like me, but overtime youre going to see me learn not to care about the people who dont give a rats ass about me. It might sound mean but ive gotta look out for myself because no one else will. Ive got to work on my confidence because unconfidence is apparently a turn off. And the people at York, Ill be back this september with aspirations and a positive attitude.

What has happened in the past has been hard to handle and has brought me to tears many times, but I wont let that hold me down anymore. I MUST STAND UP AND BE A MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.o lol. Seriously though, Im gonna learn from the mistakes Ive made with school and relationships with friends and family to make the best of everthing.

P.S. Hopefully this post makes sense. Even if it doesn’t, I needed to get all of this out and I’m feeling a lot better than I was a few hours ago.  Id also like to say thank you to a few people( two of which I fight with a lot =P) who have been there for me for a while now. always pressuring me to do better, be strong and not give up even when I didn’t want to listen.

John, Varun, and Ryan. You guys rock.